Although, thinking of it now, it has always been personal for me. What happened then? Why is it seemingly more difficult right now for me to move on this? Why am I afraid to act upon the plans I have developed thus far?
Maybe it's because I realize how much am still controlled by the monarchy. This realization has me afraid of the very anarchy I propose—the very thing I have been encouraging to take hold is the source of fear I am experiencing now.
I wish it weren't this way.
If I could I wish I could just be analytical about this, and logical even. I wish I could simply set out and accomplish the task before me. I can, and I have to. I will, but this project has been infused with emotion.
I need to channel this. This passion, this emotion, this fear, this anger, I need to channel it to result in progress. I have been making progress, but not taking action.
Today, I will.